December 29, 2016

Goodbye, 2016

I think it's safe to say 2016 was my hardest year yet.  It was filled with a lot of stress, worry, guilt, and way too many sleepless nights.  Of course it was also filled with many blessings too.  But when I look back and think about the year overall, it makes me sad.

It makes me sad that I spent so much time focusing on the things Kase can't do or won't ever do instead of the things he can do or will do.

It makes me sad that I spent time angry at myself for not switching therapy providers sooner.

It makes me sad that I spent so much time mourning the family I always envisioned in my head.

It makes me sad that I carried so much guilt with me.

It makes me sad to think about all the time I wasted.

It makes me sad that I wasn't the mom I want to be.  The wife I want to be.  The daughter, sister, friend I want to be.

Good riddance, 2016.  BE PRESENT is my motto for 2017.  I'm ready to start letting go of the past, not worrying about the future and just start focusing on the present.  I'm ready for you, 2017.

1 comment:

  1. If you find a way to stop worrying, let me know, I think it's in our genes ;)