February 28, 2013

I feel like I have a newborn


Actually, Kase's sleeping habits the last couple weeks are worse than a newborn.  Kyla goes to bed at 8:00 every night and sleeps awesome.  Always has.  Even now with a cold and cough, she sleeps so well and usually until about 8:00 each morning.

Once she's in bed, we get Kase bathed, fed and put to sleep by about 8:30-8:45.  Tyler and I usually go to bed around 10:00.  He falls asleep within 5 minutes of his head hitting the pillow (it seems that way anyway). I take at least an hour to fall asleep, sometimes a lot longer.

So when Kase wakes up at 1:30 every morning, I feel like I was just finally in a deep sleep.  We take turns putting his pacifier back in his mouth, but it never fails, he wakes up crying every 10 minutes.  For the first few nights I would just feed him a bottle because I figured he'd go to sleep with a full belly, which he usually did.  But then I realized he was starting to think he needed a bottle every morning at that time.  He was sick though and not eating much so I just felt bad not feeding him.  And there comes a point where you know you need some sleep so if feeding him a bottle is what it takes to get some, so be it.

We try everything to get him back to sleep.  I rub his head, which he absolutely loves.  I rock him.  Tyler goes out to sleep on the couch so Kase can sleep by me.  I put his pacifier in when he loses it.  Before I know it, it's 6:00 and Tyler is up getting ready for work.  It is at that moment that I wish I could go to work for a day.  I wish I could get a mental break from sick, crying babies.

At this very moment, I think I might just be happy with my two kids.  This sleep deprivation thing is not fun.  I am really hoping when he is fully healthy, he will sleep better.  He has Kyla's cold now (it was just a matter of time) so he's having a hard time breathing and coughing quite a bit.  I also ordered a teething necklace that should be here any day.  I'm not totally convinced that they work, but I have read so many of your stories so I figured it was worth a try.  I will post more on that once we get it and have time to see how/if it works.  I am thankful that all the crying in the middle of the night isn't waking Kyla up (knock on wood).

Another negative of this newborn-like sleeping is that he's no longer napping when Kyla does.  He's exhausted by 10:00 every morning and takes a good nap.  So by 12:30 when Kyla's ready for a nap, he's waking up and is ready to party.

The one thing that helps me deal with being tired and cranky is exercising.  The problem?  If I do get them to nap at the same time, I am so freaking exhausted that I have no energy to get on the treadmill.  I feel like if I am going to make it through the rest of the day, I need to lay down.  I tell myself I will go on the treadmill after I get Kase to bed.  Well, when it's almost 9:00 at night, the only thing I want to do is curl up on the couch or in bed.  Excuses, excuses, right?

I am not one that can function on four hours of sleep.  So please, Kase man, can you start sleeping a little longer for Mommy and Daddy?  I know Tyler is exhausted every day at work and I am not very sympathetic, which I feel bad about.  Being a stay at home mom is hard.  95% of the time it's awesome.  But 5% of the time, I think about how nice it would be to just get a break.

Sorry for yet another downer post.  And sorry for no pictures - I am too lazy to get the camera out and we are all still in our pj's.  The great thing about having a blog is that you can write about whatever is on your mind.  I feel like I am a pretty positive person.  But I also have days (or maybe weeks in this case) where I am physically and emotionally exhausted and need to complain a little.  As always, I am so incredibly thankful for my babies.  And thankful for all of you who continue to read this blog and don't judge me.  Or if you do, you keep it to yourself, haha :)

On the bright side, today is the last day of this awful month.  Bring on March!

13 comments:

  1. I'm sorry you're not getting any rest right now. My daughter is 7 months old now but for the first six months of her life I was a walking zombie. She woke up every two to three hours, every single night! It was horrible. I'm also a stay at home mom and sometimes I wish I could get a whole day off too. It's hard sometimes!

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  2. We went through that last month with my 7 month old. Two weeks of no sleep. She's hit or miss these days with sleep but definitely not as bad as last month. I feel for you! I hope he gets well again soon!

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  3. I feel like both of my girls had similiar "sleep regression" around this time too. Because I know that both times I was just days away from throwing the pacis away because I had to constantly get up and pop it in their mouth.

    Sleep deprivation is definitely the worst. Sometimes Brielle will wake up still in the middle of the night, and just having to walk to her room one time at night seems like the end of the world---and then I think back to the newborn days and have no idea how I did it! lol

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  4. I feel you girl... it's so hard when you are getting interrupted sleep! Hope it gets better soon!!

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  5. I totally feel for you. And can relate. I'm pretty positive too, and have a hard time bring that way when my sweet girl is not sleeping at all through the night. Like you, about every two hours. Sometimes more. Hang in Momma!

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  6. I have an idea! Kyla and Kase can feed our cats and "exercise" them and you and Tyler can go to Florida with us.... Hang in there! You can do it!!!

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  7. I remember my girls were the same way around this age too. I hope it gets better for ya. I know how awful it is to get very little sleep and then have to take care of little kids all day. Hang in there mama

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  8. Oh man! I feel so bad for you! I am tired today too and plan to take a nap. And, you know what, if giving him a bottle gets him back to sleep, I agree, so be it! LB woke up the other night super fussy (I am assuming from teething.) I tried everything to get him back down and finally caved and fed him.

    I just went on last night and actually ordered the amber teething bracelet for LB and I ordered myself a mommy teething necklace so he can chew on that while I am holding it. I am very anxious to see if the bracelet works. I have had some time now w/o one to see how he handles it, so I plan to share how he does after too.

    And, I love that you are just real on here! Who can be positive *every* day? Hope everyone is feeling better soon and that you get some sleep!

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  9. I'm sorry your little man isn't sleeping, I'll keep him in my prayers, hopefully when he is better he will sleep normal again :) cheers to march!

    Hannah

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  10. Complain away! It's your right! I completely know how to are feeling -- I was blessed, or cursed if you will, with two horrible sleepers. Now that our oldest is three, she is sleeping through the night and we don't have an issue with her. But she was 2 years old and our youngest had been born before that ever happened. Our youngest? A year old and still wakes up almost every two hours! We're in the middle of trying to wean him from nursing, and I can only hope that once we do, his sleep will straighten out. Otherwise, I'll be squeaking by some days on fumes alone! I forget what sleep is like!

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  11. Oh girl....I know that scenario all too well - I probably wrote the same post back in January when my kids were NEVER well. Hang in there...if Kase stays fussy/uncomfortable, might want to make sure he didn't get an ear infection from the cold. Joey's turned into ear infection every.single.time. Today is a new month! Here's to warmer days, sickies-free, and sunshine!! Hang in there!! And I hope you get more than 4 hours of sleep!!

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  12. Dont apologize for venting on your blog - that is some of its purpose!! I hope it gets easier for you!!

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